enough analysis!!

It is been a long time

2007-12-03T08:48:00.000-08:00

It is been really so long. I am not sure if there are any readers to this blog anymore.

I wanted to write several time but I was just so lazy to do.

I have been pressured in work like I never did. Although part of me enjoys it as it is close to what I wanted to work, yet on the other hand it is more tiring and more stressful than any job I had before. So it is this dilema, you have something good and it is your career ISA but on the other hand I am more stressed and tired.

Funny enough, that what was bothering me these days ( I dont know really why) that I was thinking of how can I manage work and my personal life when I get married ISA. Seriosly what people do?

Anyways, I was thinking for sometime in a certain charity work and I have no clue on how to do it. I want to help people especially the mothers of orphans or poor mothers to learn a skill and find a job where they can be self earners. Some of these families are already sponsored by some of my friends who pay them monthly payments. But I feel it would be better for them and the community that they would find a skill where they can earn money by their own. To help themselves and at the same time to help the community and the economic situation. Also one more reason that I found that the number of families and cases that need money and monthly payments are seriosly countless. No matter how you invite others to share or pay , it is still not enough at all. So if there is any mean where you can help a family to be self independant this will definitely reduce the burden.

Then comes the next level, what kind of skills or projects you can help by these cases, when most of them are unskilled and uneducated. So you see .. it is a big issue.. needs so much effort and organization from so any people. But I would love to contribute in such an activity. ISA I will one day.

Hope all is going well with every one. I missed everyone in the blogs.

Back to blogs

2007-04-29T13:08:00.000-07:00

Finally I managed t get back to the blogs. I tried several times to write and this new version :). I dont have a google account and i had to make one in order to login:).
I missed writing. There is nothing new except everyday work. It seems that there is nothing new after work. Your typical day doesn't change for years.

In college, I used to feel by progress there is something I am looking to.. but now they are all the same .. bas elhamdAllah I quite enjoy it. Work is a bless .... cant imagine that I would have a lot of plenty time like that. I cant make use of my spare time. I mean I have things to do but they are nice and enough to be fullfilled in the after work time and in the weekend but not more.

Anyways this is just a start , I will try to post back soon ISA.

The other face of diamond

2007-02-08T23:40:00.000-08:00

I watched a movie, two days ago, starting with Leonardo Di Caprio called " Blood Diamond". Well I am not a regular viewer for movies, and when I watch a movie, I try to pick it away from being horror or action, but that was nice.

Although it had too much killing and I jumped to the chair beside me several time, but it was too true, that I liked it. The movie for whom they did not see or hear about is talking about a country in AFrica where it has a lot of diamonds. And the troops are fighting and killing each others, not only that they tortue each other so as to control on the mining process of diamond.
You can see how they burn homes, cut people's hands, millions of refugees and thousands are dieing.

On the other side, a famous jewlery dealer is taking an advantage of the situation there, where he buys from the invading group the diamond.

Without getting too much into the details, but while I was watching the movie, I kept on saying " ElhamdAllah", " Thanks God". The fact that this happens in a way or another in different countries and the horror people feels and live in.
I realized that moving in the street and sleeping safely is itself a bless for so many in different countries who are always in terror.

While I wa jumping to the next chair beside me because of hearing too much bombs and closing my eyes to avoid seeing intensively too many cars were shot and burned in the movie for no good reason except that they are not among their group.

How many in the real life jump and feel by horror for hearing Real bombs hitting down their houses.

How many in real life are refugees after they had homes and families? Now they lost everything.
I felt so grateful and thankful to God for all the things that might upset someone or may dissatisfy him/her is not comparable to what these people feel.

The other thing that astonished me in the movie, that people were fighting too much for a piece of diamond to the extent that they would risk by their own lives for some bunch of money. I know it may sound naieve for so many. But honestly, how much does this diamond worth beside risking by your own life? Thinking of the others who died and the millions of refugees and thousands who died. Does it worth it for them ? I can't figure by what calculations they assumed that some bunch of money regardless of how much it worth would be on the account of all of this. The human beings lives are cheap in comparable to that extent.
Aren't we all leaving that one day ? We are not going to take any of them when we die, nor it worths to live the extra luxurios life in the world in compare to make people safe and happy.
I am touched by this because again this happens in the real life but in a different version.

I realized while I was watching a movie, how good things can tun to curse. Because this country had so many diamond, there was too many killing and poverty for its citizens. Maybe if it did not have diamond, they would of live a better life.

One last thing, i guess if this movie is by anyway related to be true, it is not worth it to wear a diamond ring, showing ir off, on the expense of lives and shed by so many blood.

Facts of life

2006-12-11T00:01:00.000-08:00

Yesterday while I am at work, I found my best friend signing in on the MSN. I strated talking to her, and she didnt answer. I found her colleague telling me that she left as her grandma just passed away.

I was shocked! Not because she wasnt sick. But because I know for fact how much the grandma represents for E. (my best friend) a lot. I myslef love her so much. I have a lot of memories with her. My best friend is my friend since we are 8. And Actually I started to get to her grandma and auntie family by 10. She used to live beside the club. We used to go from the club while we are going home to her. We stay some time there. My best friend used to love her so much, and she meant so much for her. I remember many days we spent just going there to spend some time with my best friend and she can stay some time with her grandma. I remember when we used to go in summer to Alex, and we stay at her house. How she tried to get from me a daily report of what we do so as to make sure that everything is ok. :) She was very kind and I felt by so much sorry for her. May God bless her soul.

For a fact of life, that we always ignore, that we are one day will age or will not age but we will die one day. Things in life that we mind ourselves too much will not mean anything one day. The too much shopping for a suitable shoe, or the argument that I had with my colleague will not count. All that wont count anything. feeling sorry for things ... should be recalculated. What counts at the end is the good deed. That is the fact of life. Even when we forget that it is actually too short. And one day we will just leave it. What will count is our good deeds. May God accept them and help us in doing good deeds and forgive our weakness and sins InshaaAllah.

Sorry for the sad post but not really sad elhamdAllah.

Busy and not Busy

2006-12-02T00:43:00.000-08:00

Since I started my new job and I am very busy. My God, I am not used to these long working hours. I used o leave work by 4 30 PM and sometimes 5:00 PM, sometimes 6:00 PM. But these were exceptionals. Now I leave by 6:00 PM and this is the normal thing. Oh No! I feel like when I go home that i am speachless:) cant do anything.

I want to get used to the effort , so i can resume my life. Seems that anything I need to do, I delay to my weekend.

It is been a month and half now working these long hours, ISA I will get used to the effort soon.

I need to resume my post graduate study
I need to review the Quran,
I need to go to make some excercises... as i gained weight lately:(((. The last thing I want. I will retry to go after work immediately to walk in track or play tennis, instead of going home and then I get lazzy.

what else, I need to do some social and charity activities.. i feel good when I do that.

Ramadan

2006-09-25T01:28:00.000-07:00

الحمد الله الذي بلغنا رمضان

اللهم بارك لنا في هذا الشهر

All at at a sudden I found Ramadan is comming this year and as usuall all Muslims feel by so much cherich towards this month. We look forward for it in the whole year.

What can I say ? I Wish if all the months of the year were Ramadan. The gates of pradaise are opened and the devils are chained. In Ramadan, the one good deed is rewarded 70 times more than any month all over the year. In this month, there is a night more greater in virtue than a thousand monthsAll. That night where the first verses of Quran descended to prophet Muhammad (PBUH) for the first time. This is a month, the first of which brings Allah’s mercy, the middle of which brings His forgiveness and the last of which brings emancipation from the fire of Jahan-nam.

Muslims are united in this month. Fasting and doing the same worship together. People of the same time zone fast at same time and eat during dawn all together. Most of muslims during this month go for long prayers at night. Ready for doing more charity more than anytime during the year. Willing to make fetar (meals ) during dawn for poor people and for their relatives as well.

In Egypt, almost every body is making charity food bags in order to be distributed for poor people. Almost in every street, there is a dining table sponsored by some, who make nice meals for the poor people and the passing passengers to eat from during fetar.

All the mosques after the esha prayer are fullfilled with people of all ages (men and women, old and young and children) comming to pray the prayers after the the 3esha and praying God that He would accept their fasting and accepts their repentance and fogives them and asking for the countless good things He has to give for them.

Prayers

2006-07-24T02:00:00.000-07:00

Been very upset lately about what is going on. The feeling of humilation and torture hurts me. Can't believe how some people have hard hearts and no mercy to do for others that. To hurt and abuse ..for the sake of nothing but hurt and torture and abuse ..dont they have mercy in their hearts? Are their hearts made of stones? How can some one bear to humilate and hurt some other person and sees him /her screaming from pain and they keep in going ?

The scenes and the photos can hurt any normal human being. It is not what is going only in lebanon ...it is about what going everywhere. We can't go on in our lives, just as we are fine and enjoying our lives ..ignoring the others..cant figure what we can do ..

Donate ? yeah it is a good idea to supply food and medical care ..but would it stop violence? Would it make people and children sleep safely without waking up on bombing their homes and screaming from burned ?
would it make people feel safe from invaders dragging people to prisons and torturing men and women

would it stop the hurt in the mothers' hearts for loosing their children ?

Cant do anything but praying and praying that God would remove this disaster from our heads

Pray everyone that peace would be spread and help lebanon and every victim of injustice.

Donate with blood ?

2006-07-15T01:48:00.000-07:00

Today at 5:30 am , one of my friends called me , whom i didn't have much contact with in the last year, and i was stunned that she is calling me at 5:30 am. whe i answered , she told me whether i know someone with blood group O negative as her aunt is bleeding for three hours now and they can't find her blood group. I didn't know and it was too early to call any to ask , so i told her to go to some blood banks that are well known in Cairo, she replied that they already asked in all those banks and they couldn't find because it is a very rare group.

I couldn't realize how come that the hospital that her aunt is taking her med care doesn't have bood reserves for all the groups, and how come all the banks i mentioned dont have any of this blood group. what if (and it is )an indeed emergency ..a surgery or what so ever!

I opened a medical care hospitals guide and i strated to call them and all advised me that there is n't any of this group and they mentioned me these banks that my friend already contacted them before.

STILL can't realize that ! Whenever I hear about donating for blood , i feel careless towards donating because i know that there are many who does that and there are many blood banks and it is not the severe volunteer action because there are so many who does that already .. till today.

I realized how important it is and how much it is appreciatable that someone whould donate with his/her blood in this sitaution. And how sometimes underestimated actions can save peoples' lives even if we dont realize how great is this action or underestimate it in compare to other volunteer and charity activities.

NOTHING to be underestimated. We can never know with whom we can help with this simple action.

Ambigious situations

2006-06-23T09:01:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I get woried over things and I try to make things easy on myself by too much analyzing ...talking to myself and convincing myslef that this is because of .... Or I try to make myself calm a bit and I tell my self stop worying and thinking too much. What is meant to be is gonna be no matter what ..so stop thinking in an aimeless thing, knowing that it is not gonna let me change anything. Hope everyhing would be good and to have a real sort of dependance on God ISA.

Is that Iraqi feedom or Iraqi terror?

2006-06-02T04:27:00.000-07:00

I don't understand how the US is lieing and they actually believe their lies. They envaded Iraq and they called it " Iraqi Freedom". And they said that their war is not targeting the civilians and those who were been shot on the civilians was all a mistake .. that was in year 2003!

And since they invaded Iraq and it is all terror ! They are causing terror for Iraqi people by all the possible means. It wasn't enought thay they exploited its resources, but they had to drag Iraqis for torture and murder.

The scandals issued day after day in the press of what the US army did so far for the civilians ..didn't make a strong push what so ever.. that the US government releases whether the prisoners or to leave the whole government in peace.

What fault did the children , women , men did to feel by such terror in their homes daily.

An Iraqi woman was going to have its maternity in the hospital where the US army shoot her ... saying that she entered the worng zone !
http://www.islamonline.com/cgi-bin/news_service/middle_east_full_story.asp?service_id=11141
Who said and decides that this is the wrong zone ! It is their country for God's sake

The American congress and Prime minister of Israel said that they want peace ! what Peace

May God help them out.

Very interesting

2006-05-30T15:34:00.000-07:00

I was looking at one of the islamic sites, that I like the most for it doesn't only show spot lights in Islam as fundamentals, but also but it gives wide views and news about what is going on these days in world.

Today , I opened the site where I found this new, about a US non profitable organization which showed from a survey done how the west is very biased towards Israel. What was shocking two things, first being a US and second is the results that were displayed... they were indeed heartening. here it is below .... what do you think ?

http://www.islamonline.com/cgi-bin/news_service/middle_east_full_story.asp?service_id=11096

2006-05-19T10:00:00.000-07:00

Now as there was some problems in the division that I am working in. And they are presenting a proposal on how to reallocate the division and the staff to other departments. I found a good opening , suppose to be ISA. It is in the same place, but different department, suppose to be a higher one than I have these days. It is suppose to be of higher responsibilities as well. Well for anyone in my situation would just try to apply ( I don't know for fact if they will accept me or not).

But I mean as long as I am not sure yet whether my job in the previous department will remain and the situation is all ambigious. So this may sound rational. Except for the fact is that I am very emotional towards my previous place and I have hope that it would continue even if it was a step less than this one (new opening ) and of less pay.

I feel happy by the management flexible style , teamwork colleagues.. everything. It is not like I am having too much contact with my colleagues in the whole day.. but the general atmosphere is descent and fine. Having a good morning smile in the face of every one..less bossy style ...less anxious .. good teamwork , those who are seniors deal in friendly way. This is far away from what I expected in the egyptian management system. (well i know that for some one this maynot count for him/her but in fact it does count a lot for me)

Well the one who was in the other post told me frankly that he didn't like neither the management nor the team that much .. that is why he jumped out once he found another post. This is beside that the added responsibilties means added work burden ... but still amn't I limited to the 8 hrs of work daily?

Anyways, frankly if I am sure that the team is good enough, I would of go for it ...because it is a more guranteed position rather than the unfigured situation we have now and at the end it is good that I would promote in a way or another.

Is it it weird that I am that emotional ? Things really make difference with me. Couldn't belive how some one like Loulou for example , who had to bear complete isolation from her team for the sake of her career.

Anyways, I made a prayer of estekhara and I will apply anyways, and ISA God will lead me to the right path.

Fullfilment

2006-05-14T14:18:00.000-07:00

I was inspired by Aisha's post and Ash's comment on losing identity in married relationships. Actually talking is much easier than the real life.

Aisha was saying that some people when they get married, their personalities change and they get isolated. Ash's comment was very interesting that if one of the partners gave up everthing and he/she gave up his/her identity for the sake of the other partner, he/she will have a suucessful life but never fullfillig. .... These words ring a bill to me for some reasons.

I consider myself a bit active, i have my working life , social life, volunterring activities, even my hobbies .. I consider this is all part of me. When i was engaged , even before troubles happen between me and my ex , but I used to feel having good relation but neither fullfilled or fully satisfied. . My friends and everyone was complaining that I became thinking of nothing but him , I gave up all the things I used to do .. no activities at all and i get isolated a bit and he became the center of my thinking.

I didn't really mean to do that .. but just happened to me and I was wondering why am I not fully satisfied? The answer simply is that there are so many aspects in life. Of course there is prioritizing but we should not go to one aspect in life and ignore the rest. For most we should have a role in our community we are living in , our families, comunity in general , towards ourselves, our friends. Each has different priority in his/her life, but definitely life should not be all about waiting for a phone call or going out with my partner. Partners indeed make difference , they are the Sakan " settlement " that we seek by getting married..but we should never overlook the othersides in life that we should think of , in terms of worshipping God.

I thank God on everything, ElhamdAllah. I feel that during this period I get in contact with everything back. I hope that when I get commited again ISA, I would be doing fine .... and not losing my identity.

Double Standard

2006-05-07T06:05:00.000-07:00

Now the Paletsine was encouraged to be a democratic country and to have a democractic and now Palestine people are just punished for their democratic choice and electing Hamas! Isn't that redicilous? How come ? encouraging the democratic election and on the other hand forcing sanactions and pressuring people and cutting from them any sorts of aids to change their election choice, or in other words .. to punish them for their democratic choice.

Ok so why they didn't go and announce , we wont accept to elect Hamad loud and clear and if you did , you will have sanactions instead of this meaningless act!

you can visit this http://www.islamonline.com/cgi-bin/news_service/middle_east_full_story.asp?service_id=11249

and know more about what happens to Palestines.

Prayers for the dead people in Dahab Blast

2006-04-30T09:16:00.000-07:00

May God have mercy on their souls and give patience for their families

Ameen

Emotions Fullfillment

2006-04-12T07:37:00.000-07:00

These days we are working on keeping the jobs we have , I am working in some interesting areas these days , for this sake . I don;t know , I used to before recently to be very satisfied when I do some sort of work like that cause i feel my recognition then.

But there is something lacking inside me , and I feel it . I really lack the emotions ! Thanks God I have more emotions than so many do , I have my family at least elhamdaAllah and they are so loving and caring . May God reward them all the good for beimg so good with me ISA. I have my life and friends. But i still do lack the emtinal thing towards some one . It is getting too much on me these days. I feel it when I find someone who I know that he won't work out because he is married or whatever , but if i like him a bit , I feel by change in my spirit and then I realize why am I very happy then ! and then I get upset because I feel that it is not true nd should not be like that ! So the desperate feeling comes to me when i meet someone i feel good towards and happy for talking with him after wards immediately I tell myself now it is fake , it is all built on unreality. I pity myslef that I can get happy by something like that honestly . i wish if i can have some more strentgh ameen. It is not a matter of age as much it is a metter of state that comes over me and I don't know how to stop. Can our lives be standing for that ? and what about the couples who find out that their partners are not really whom they were dreaming off? There is no way back then , I know it is no way to be realistic that all the couples and married people relations all teh time full of emmtions but to an extent , it is after all suppose to be built on good basis. any way just felt that i need to spell it out from my spirit

Looking for something ?

2006-04-07T13:32:00.000-07:00

I don't know what is going with me these days, or at least the last month. I am back from my home to check my work email , feel happy that I got some mails , even if it was for work , I just feel by sort of interaction that I like to do . I like reacting and having intractions among people. So that is why I check my work email , used to be happy when I find something , sme one asks me about something or some one notifying me by anything. Even the forwards I like to see !

Same goes for my personal mails , the yahoo and the hotmail, when I find someone sending me a personal message , I get so happy , I feel ...
EVen the forwards are so much better that zero message , it makes me really feel lonely.

I Really don't know why. I do have a life , I go work , I like it ElhamdAllah (Thanks God), I have my family and friends elhamdAllah , Then what ?

I don't see my best friends alot but that was the case before , so what is wrong ? why do I feel lonely or am I translating it by that, or seeking any sort of attention or interaction via mail , while I do have elhamdAllah a real life and people I do interact with in real life.

I think I should not think why as much as if I am feeling lonely to try to be fine ISA.
Maybe I should need to tell myself : enough analysis :))

UnKnown Situation

2006-04-07T08:53:00.000-07:00

These days hmm are quite ambigious, in an unknown situation actually.
I came work one day where they told me ( the manager and my colleagues ) we will have a celebration , so I said Great! Then there are great news!!
And they actually ordered two cakes and invited the whole program I am working in , so I said to myself what are these great news , are we gonna get all promotion all or what ?

Then the manager had a meeting with us where he told me that for some reasons the division me and my colleagues we are working in has to close , but not the whole program , and not because of the bad performance but because of some conflicts that happened with the top management.

Anyways, They told us that they will try to reallocate the staff and the resources to other divisions if the activities can marge with other divisions !!! I really don't know fr what he was ce;ebrating , then I knew he miunderstood the message where he invited everyone and then he knew the fact where he can't go back from his invitation

Well , I have some hope that this would be sorted out as they really want to , but what is weird that I was fine and I had hopes that this will be sorted out in a way that God who makes it up for us.
I had some offers in the past few months and I declined because I like my work and Because I am very emotional, I get attached to the place and the people that I can;t rethink of other place at least in the mean time.

So hopefully these offers came early and not in the time where i knew the division is closing for some good reasons ISA.

What is weird that we dont know still our situation , the uncertainity is not agood feeling , shall I start looking for other jobs or shall I wait ? May be it will be sorted out , as I said I am emotionally attached by the place now.

If it is gonna be over, well I would like to know to make serious steps , and if not well I hope to know so as to relax, anyways the uncertainity itself is not nice.

It is true that nothing can be taken for granted in our lives , there was no problem in the day before and just the day after , they told me about work

Hope it turns to best ISA

The Many Blessings we do have , elhamdAllah (Thanks God)

2006-03-16T03:47:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I saw a famous movie called " Fedex" starting by Tom Hanks. I really like this actor.

The man " for those who didn't see it " was in a plane which was crashed and he swam in the sea for a long time till he was settled in an Isolated island, where no single human being was there , not even a cat or an animal breathing beside him. How Lonely !

The man tried by all means to find ways where he can drink juice from fruits, ..then how he tried to make fire from the wood friction which wasn't an easy task for him at all. And how he celebrated happily when he managed to make fire where he can get some heat and cook his food. Then having pain in his teeth and he had to remove one of his teeth by his own, how painful!

What was very touching when he got really depressed and he found in one of the fedex bags , a football , and he draw a face on it and he made for it some hair.. and he started talking to it as if it is a a toy. He even called it " Simon" . And he kept talking to him (it ) every while. And he started feeling like it is a real comapnion. he would of forgethow to talk if he didn't do that.

He was kept in this state for four years! Then he managed by some stuff to make a small boat made of the tree wood with no walls, but there was sail of wood that he managed to make.

And finally he took this boat and when he was in the mid of the sea , a large boat saw him and took him back after these four years

Fogot to say that while he is in his boat , he took the ball with him , and was talking to the face he did as " Simon" that it is almost there !!!. And when the ball fell off in the sea , he cried and kept on calling it " Simon". My Godness! elhamdAllah " Thanks God"

Sob7an Allah " Glory to God" , there are things that we take by default and we don't feel by how much it is a bless and meaningful for us , because it is so simple , but so important to our lives ...The so many blessings that God is giviving them to us every day and we don't thank Him enough for it.

The most touching bless I recognized was having faith , speaking to God, worshiping Him , asking Him to get you of that ...knowing that there will be hope as God is here and He hears our calls and can get us out of anything EnshaaAllah (God's will )

The second thing is the companion , how we forgot that.

The bless of having a companion who ever, a friend, a family, a colleague ... makes a difference .. This man when he made the ball as a toy , his spirit was lifted up ... has all the right for that.

Even if it was a cat .. but some one breathing and communicating , what ever the communication is ..but needed. I understood why Prophet Adam , peace by upon him , when he was created he felt lonely while he was alone , and so Eve was created to be his companion.

So many blessings we take for granted and we don't stop and think of it , because they are so simple and taken by default.

When he was rescured . he held the fire light , and how it is turned on so easily , he kept in doing that few times....how simple it is now ...and how it was a bless for his when he managed of doing it while he was alone with no resources.

"And if you would count Allah's favors, you will not be able to number them; most surely Allah is Forgiving, Merciful. "(An-nahl : 18)

Our Prophet prayers and peace be upon him

2006-02-16T09:07:00.000-08:00

Too many discussions and debates were going on these days about this issue. People are indeed shocked from both sides. The Muslims are shocked that some one can dare and mock in the public media on our prophet PBUH and they know how much he is valuable to Muslims and religon to them is no way of to be taken as a joke.

I want to stress on something that we don't idolize him , we only worship God, but we believe of him and that he is messenger of God and same for the rest of prophets,peace be upon them.

The freedom of speach, should not lack respect in general and to religons specifically. Not in particular Islam, but I was shocked to see that the west media acceptings unappropriate drawings for prophet Jesus , peace be upon him which is something totally inacceptable as well

.... That is why the West Media was stunned from Muslims reactions. I guess they don't value prophets as much as they should value or put them in their proper ranks that they should have. They can't realize how much religon is important and should be ranked as a priority and respect.

Some people come and claim that the awful cartoon which was drawn was due to the minority of the Muslims violent reactions !!! Doesn't that show that they are quite close minded? We do criticise the zionists, but do we blame prophet Moses peace be upon him on that ? of course NO.

I believe that NON of who criticized him or made the cartoons themselves know anything about him on the first basis.

Prophet Mohamed (PBUH) trusted the Jews and gave them all the rights of citizenship in Madinah, guaranteeing that no one would harm them, take any of their money, force them to convert, or intercede with their freedom to worship. He was great in co-existence when he was against using the Muslims loyal to him in Makkah to create tension among the people of Quraysh, even during the war between Makkah and Madinah

And more and more about his great character. He was known in Mecca before being a prophet by the " Honest".

We love him so much for all what he suffer and torturing for the sake of calling people to Islam and to deliever the message of God. wants .... MAy he would be proud of us ISA and won't be upset of what we did after his death. God ordered us of following him and loving him .

Even though the dark side and the ignorance I have seen lately but I am happy by the ORGANIZED peaceful acivities that are done by Muslims in response to defend our prophet PBUH like what Council of American Islamic Relations (CAIR) had done , by making organized activities of an awareness on our prophet PBUH, http://www.cair.com/muhammad/

And AMrkhaled web site as well www.amrkhaled.net
Hope this would make better awareness and education about his character

Meme

2006-01-11T15:50:00.000-08:00

Liked the meme that Jane made in her blog , though it would be interesting , important questions never though about
well if any one did it let me know !

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? A lot ! I started in doing jewlery accessories made of silver and tried to sell them and that was A Wow experience for me , tried to sell scarves overseas with the help of one of my friends and my relatives and was a very nice one as well.
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?I made a good resolution for last year but still needs so much stbility to decide the new year's resolution.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Yes, my best friend and my cousin
.4. Did anyone close to you die? No, elhamdAllah
5. What countries did you visit? Saaudi Arabia
.6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? being emtionlly stable and stop worrying.

7. What dates from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? March ( was my last month in my previous job ), 5 october, the date of my interview, 6 November the date I started my new job.
.8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Finally finding a good job elhamdAllah and enabling to take a step ! overcomming my shyness abit and selling off some of my jewlery stuff.

9. What was your biggest failure? Not yet elhamdAllah , hopefully not at all.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? ElhamdAllah the regular, nothing serious Thanks God.
. Whose behavior merited celebration? Nothing particular in my mind at the moment
.13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Politicians

14. Where did most of your money go? outings
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? the scarves business

16. What song will always remind you of 2005? Hero Enrique galcious, I know it is old but just

recognized it this year

.17. Compared to this timed it this year more last year, are you:a) happier or sadder? happier elhamdAllah

18- thinner or fatter? fatter :(

richer or poorer? maybe richer

19-. What do you wish you'd done more of? loose weight , cotinue in the busniess stuff cause I liked and do some progress in my thesis.

How will you be spending Christmas? at home

.21. Did you fall in love in 2004? maybe

23. What was your favorite TV program?I love Friends

24-. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? No thanks God

25. What was the best book you read? in year 2005 they were all scientefic ones or via net .

What was your greatest musical discovery? No one

.27. What did you want and get?doing somehing new .

28. What did you want and not get? that is private .

29- What was your favorite film of this year? didnt see many , want really that impressed

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I was in umrah and I turned 27

] 31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? B eing committed to a good person whom I love and feel happy with his company

. 32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? casual

33. What kept you sane? many really :)

.34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? I am not really into celebrities

36. Who did you miss? some people I know I dont have much contact with and someothers that I lost contat with

37. Who was the best new person you met? my colleagues in masters they were kinder than anybody I have ever seen in my life! and my cyber friends

.38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005. I have to take steps towards wgat I want with some thinking and little hesitation and to have faith and being patient

39. What political issue irked you the most? All what is happening from killing , abusing , toturing ..everything

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. nothing really in my mind , that sounds weird !

Eid Mubarak

2006-01-08T12:22:00.000-08:00

Every one eid mubarak ISA and happy new year . Havent been able to blog lately , so many thoughts come to my mind but just can't write them. I am not busy these days suppose as before, but yet my ming is working and thinking of the pending issues I have. I need to set few things that I need to have and do , there are things in my hand and things uncomtrollable , to be left on God ISA. for me I am really distracted with the thesis thing, can't set yet what would be my minor, I like marketing , and at the same time people encourage me to go for HR morebecause its job opportunities are better ! and I actually do like HR as well , but the mrketing more. Dont why I cant read a piece of article , I have time , but my mind cant concentrate. I discovered That I love studying , I dont know if it has to do with the research thing or with being involved in the school's environment once again, that is somehow meritual.

The spirit of sudying and sharing things with my collegaues, I dont know why! but it was great , used to love it last year.

Hopefully I can sdecide and not regreting the minor that would fit me the best and start continue my masters !

And I thought that I have changed

2005-12-18T13:53:00.000-08:00

it is been a while since I wrote, actually I have no time what so ever, I mean it! My working hours aren't bad, but I just have too many things to think about that even hinders me from doing my daily activities.
It will just take time ! I guess

Any ways , my work so far I like it elhamdAllah , and the team work I have are cooeprative and I like the management style , so far , every thing is fine elhamdAllah. Actually I am working now for a month or maybe a bit more, and I got attached with the place and the people.

In my previous job, I wasn't willing to leave for a long time , even though this wasn't good enough for me , but I was emotionally attached with the place and the people as well to take such a move. And when I decided to change and I was insisting on that , ..after I got bored ... I though that I am changed and I become more practical and I think professionally on wha is the best for me for my career and putting the emotions aside !!!

Few days ago, a well known organization called me for an inerview , I found myself consulting the people and myself that it is better to stay in what I am , and what I am in is the best , ( even though if there is a difference in the salary) but no much difference in positions, beside I feel more at ease with the people I a with now and I feel ok and I know that I am not kind of person who wold throw her personal life and feelings for the sake of the professional work.

SO it seems that I am still like before , but hopefully after a year , I won''t say ...what did I do ? :) I guess not , I feel now more but what i do more.

A dream on my mind …would it be true ?

2005-11-26T09:44:00.000-08:00

Maybe I am too greedy but I feel by God's compassion and I believe of His mercy , I seek too much from Him , but hopefully I won't be kind of person who turns his/her back when God gives them a need And instead of thanking Him, forgets and think of what can be better that I couldn't get!
I wonder who am I in those, I hope that I would be settled and God 's mercy would lead me to the right path always.

I have to admit that I felt by God's mercy a lot on me, walking in the road, driving in the street , everything I feel that God is protecting me ISA.

After long search of job and a long time and I got patient for a long time , God helped me in finding a good job elhamdAllah (Thanks God) , as every thing else I felt that I should be patient and God would reward me and gives me what I will like , hopefully I will be ISA.

What I am wondering now or a dream in my mind, is about finding my partner, but not any partner , I don't know why , but maybe after I broke , and I got hurt and then I met some people, I am looking forward that my partner would be some one who Makes it up for me , and I mean it . Some one whom I admire and get impressed with and have an overwhelming happiness while I am with him , enjoying his company, his talk , appreciating his personality that lasts and not seasonal , and the same would be for him . Too much right ?

I am writing this because whenever time passes, I start to say to myself maybe …., but I wish from God that He would generously give something that I get content with.

And whenever some one sets me for n arranged marriage, I feel like, what do I really want? Hopefully God gives me what I feel I need and satisfied and makes me a person who has self content.

Good news

2005-11-18T10:12:00.000-08:00

I wanted to write this post from a while but I had no time what so ever to sit down and write on the computer!

The good news is that I found a good job elhamdAllah (Thanks God) at last , after a very long search. I started from 2 weeks exactly , just after I returned from the omrah.

The job I was looking forward for it very much from 2 months , I applied in it and they called me for an interview before the omra , and then they sent me the letter of intent and after that I travelled , to start my job immediately after I returned. I didn't have time to rest :)

I didn't realize that working raises my mood and spririt to that extent , actually I am used to be busy by something , can't stay empty.
But also, I have been staying at home for months , so I must say that I needed some time to regain my energy and can do many things at the same time , it is like I feel consumed but hopefully I will get used to the every day working effort and can get back to my normal activities day by day , pray for me every body in my new job:)

We still need more efforts

2005-11-10T10:21:00.000-08:00

The more we pas by charity houses and you get involved to see how many needy people who need food, or shelter or education or a medical treatment, what can i say " ElhamdAllah elazy 3fana mema ebtalah khatheeran men 3bedah ".

Even more what happens all over the world from disasters who need all our help , either through paying or donations, or even by doing voluntary work.

I was happy to see and feel the sense of intimacy for all the people that we may feel by them , and for those who are in Pakistan , after the earthquake that occured there lately.

But what after that ? sometimes I see donations are more than ever and the tables serving food are almost in every street and the families are taking bags of food usually in Ramadan . But what after ramadan ?

Would we stop donating ? would we stop praying for the needy people ? Even if we did , may be not with the same strong will that we had before.

But I realize that people may need efforts after ramadan because there are no tables serving food for ever needy person passing by the street.
I wish if there can be a sustainable project all over the year.

But let us say simply , we can just put for ourselves a minimum by which we can do every month , adopting a case or two where we can give them what we can periodically or monthly , not a must in terms of money but we have as well . There could be extra clothes , shelter , medicine that this case or two may need. To keep our eyes and our hearts and minds of others as well.

The Trip

2005-11-09T12:28:00.000-08:00

The trip was very nice elhamdAllah, the omrah was great , It was not the first time for me , I went before, but first time in the last 13 days in Ramadan. I must of say it was crowded, but if you just don't let the feelings of too much crowdedness and tiredness overcome you , you will enjoy the great sense of spirituality. You will even feel better that you went during this time, because you are automatically occupied with prayers all the time , either the night prayers (Taraweeh) or Tahajed prayers ( the prayers that start at 1 Am) so you are totally occupying your time in worshiping God.

The first say in "Madina" City , where prophet Mohammed (PBUH) is buirred, during the first day while I was walking to his mosque during the maghrab (dawn) prayer, and every one is distributing on me , bottles of mineral water, dates, other sorts of food, almost every one was distributing while I was walking there to the mosque... a nice feeling right?

Wonder if we can distribute food and drink after Ramadan to the needy people at least , so that it won't be only a one moth shot where every one donates by his / her means and then takes a rest till the next Ramadan.

Then the second and the third days, I managed ElhamdAllah to visit the prophet's (PBUH) tomb where he is buirred.

There is a hadith that who visits him while he is dead as if he visited him while he was alife and that when some one goes there and says to him " salamo Alaykom" , he returns the salam back to us.
This feeling I got while I was doing that could be undescrible. I hear about him , I believe of him , but the feeling that he was that close , was something else.

Going to Mecca, it was more crowded than Madina much more, where the Holy house is located , I liked the Tawaf (moving around the house 7 times ) , I liked doing it the most thing over there. When I went before, during uncrowded times, I managed to see the feet prints of Prophet's Ibrahim and Ismail (Peace Be upon them ) on one of the rocks that they were standing above during building the house.

In the last night prayers , 29th Ramadan night , it was more crowded , like 3 millions praying at the same time, must of say that even when it was croded but I liked watching all these people together praying at the same time. Hope that it would remain and won't be just for one day.

I liked to introduce to people over there, I liked to get introduced to different nationalities , maybe the blogging helped me in that:)

Back

2005-11-06T13:10:00.000-08:00

Thanks all for the nice comments that you left me, I was happy to see them when I was back.

I was in Mecca doing omrah in the last 13 days in ramadan , I and doshar, (my sis) :). And it was very nice elhamdAllah and hope that Rabena yetakabal. I remembered the blogging over there, wherever anything happens that leave a remark to me , I say to myself , Well I will blog about that ! as I remembered most of you in my prayers especially those who have something up with them. Hope you enjoyed Ramadan here and the eid as well.

Well i will blog about it later in more details, when i gather up my thoughts

I hpe to do Hajj too soon , I feel better when i do these obediences in my youth , we 3okbalkom too enshaAllah :)
Missed you all :)

Vaccation

2005-10-21T02:33:00.000-07:00

To my bloggers friends , I will be away for 2 weeks enshaaAllah , and then I will start blogging after I return back enshaaAllah , take care and happy ramadan and Eid Mubarak in advance.

BTW, my birthday is tomorrow so this means I will be turning 27 ISA and this means that I am getting Older :( No big deal.

A nice Song

2005-10-15T15:05:00.000-07:00

I bought a tape for Sami Yousef , a singer who sings Islamic songs. I felt very much touched by the first song to the extent I was about to cry , I don't know why ? maybe the words , the music , the tone , it all touched my heart .

The song is called " My Ummah" its words touched me ....

This is the first part of the song " the first few sentences "

My Umman , my Ummah
He will say, Rasululah on that day
Even though we stayed from him and his way

My brothers, my sisters, in Islam
let's struggle, work and pray
if we are to bring back the glory of his way

The rest is also great ! and the song is even more touching. The fact that Prophet Mohammed (PBUH) will say that on the judgement day and how much he suffered for us from torturing , how much he loves us ISA. Looking forward that when he sees us one day ISA , he would be happy by us. Ya Rab

Translation

2005-10-11T14:16:00.000-07:00

I said before about a religous speaker who is well known in the Middle East and he is gonna talk about the prophet (PBUH) story in Iqraa Channel , now I opened his website in the english section and I found the first 5 epidoses are translated into English , maybe the translation would be a head behind the TV ...becuase of the time taken for translation and editing.

It is great actually for those who are interested , check here http://www.amrkhaled.net/acategories/categories161.html

Kluukked

2005-10-09T15:36:00.000-07:00

I hanve been klukked by jane to do this , write 5 random things of me, unfortunately i don't know how to upload photos or else i would of done because they were of been nice.

1- I have been born in Egypt and after 20 days we moved to Jeddah where I spent my early 5 years of my childhood there, can't recall much. But my older sis and my brother do , we are still in contact with our freinds who were there with us in the building who are considered to be from the nicest people we may ever met.

2- I love playing tennis and watching it , I had a dream when I was a child to be one of the Grandslam heros of tennis, and because I joined the tennis 11 years old , I felt like I was old to achieve this dream so I quited the tennis thing to return back to it when I am 20!

3- I learned to be some how optimistic and I am trying to be having a real sort of dependance on God so as to have a hope for the future and that the dreams would be fullfilled or else it would of been very depressing.

4- I am 26 and I am turning 27 soon ISA, and still I feel so young , and my family , my friends ...even those who are younger with me deal as if I am a baby ...so what is that?

5- I love my family so much and love my nephews even If I am not good in dealing with kids ...but really love them., and looking forward to have mine ISA

well I will recommend doshar, loulou, me to do it

Trying

2005-10-05T01:57:00.000-07:00

The first day in Ramdan is gone , and i feel like time is running and I wish if I can invest in it from doing as much as I can in this month. Time is so precious indeed all the time, but maybe we feel it more in Ramdan month because of the extra blessing in it, trying to seek forgiveness and praying God.

Yesterday I saw in the TV, in one of the programs , one of the religon speakers, actually he is very well known in The Middle east " amr khaled ". The man was in a progrm before ramadan as well , he has an influencing capability that may effect people easily, actually he said something very nice in the progam, that the reason that he has the capability to influece the youth generation and those who are brought up from a certain standard .. because he is actually close to this group in terms of age and standard , that is why he feels our needs then ,....so when he addresses us , he doesn;t sound like some one who is so far away , who doesn't know of any of the temptations or thoughts that cross our minds.

Frankly, yes ,when some one advices you by something like " You should and You should not" and doesn't know about the other needs the other person is actually havng or his /her points of weakness, makes the communication much harder and more rejecting to accept the advice.

He will be starting a program in ramadan on the Prophet's (PBUH) story in Iqraa channel, maybe he would have an english translation for it later on his site.

I read the prophet's story before in some sort of detail, but I believe that I need to reread it and hear from some one else as a teacher so as to have a deeper focus on his personality, what he passed through and learn from his behaviours in the different situations he passed through in his life, ...because he is indeed, the one who we should look up for.

Getting very close

2005-10-02T04:14:00.000-07:00

Only one or two days at the most and Ramadan will come , ISA , it is a month that Muslims wait for , where the rewards are multiplied and God's forgiveness and mercifulness is the most.

Messenger of Allah (PBUH) said when one Ramadan came:

"A blessed month has arrived. Observing it in fasting is mandated on you (the believers). During this month, the gates of Paradise will be opened and the gates of Hellfire will be closed. The evil ones (Shayaatin) will be handcuffed. In it there is one night, during which worship is better than worship in a thousand months. Whoever is denied its blessings has been denied the biggest blessing." (Ahmed, Nasaae, and Bayhaqi)

People everywhere suppress their own needs in terms of foood and drink till the dawn , not only in terms of food and drink , they try to behave as descent as possible , trying t behave in the proper behavior that Muslims should conduct so that this wont offset their fasting and to take the full reward from God. It is a great feeling of unity of how all the Muslims all over the world are doing the same good deed at the same time and enjoying the God's blessing ISA of that month.

The only One who knows that you are really abstaining is Allah, the Almighty. It is easy to pretend to be fasting; while in hiding, you may eat or drink. Thus, fasting is considered a special worship.

It has been reported by the way of Abu Hurairah (raa) that the Prophet (PBUH) reported that Allah (SWT) said in a Hadith Al-Qudsi:

"All services of the son of Adam are for him except fasting. It is for Me, and I will reward him for it."

Fasting is a shield. On the day you fast, do not use obscenity, nor yell at others, nor act ignorantly towards them. However, if anyone abuses you verbally or attempts to draw you to fight with him, say 'I am fasting' two times.

Knowing that, that the reward is much more in Ramadan , People run in doing chraities and feed poor people during their Fetar meal at the dawn. They pray for longer times (taraweeh) night prayers , worshiping God by all means. Even though when we invite people and relatives , we renew our intensions that this is fostering the relations between relatives and we are feeding fasting people as well.

It is an amazing feeling how much is good inside us and we try to run after each other , racing on how much we can do from the good deeds and that God would accept them ISA.

In Ramadan, People who behave and encouaged to behave well and do good deeds should be some how got used to the discipline behavior and try to act in their same behaviors or even close to it, after Ramadan ending, because we are all the year and forever God's slaves.

I can't wait for it to come ISA, and looking forward to make use of it peoperly enshaaAllah and that God would help me in that and hoping that all our needs to be fullfilled and for all the Muslims all over the world. And that God would accept us ISA.

Interviews

2005-09-28T12:21:00.000-07:00

Still going in the interviews ... I was getting frustrated afer all this search ..if I dont get what I want , but now ElhamdAllah i reached to somehow self settlement that I will do the best of what I can do and leave the rest for God...because there is nothing I can do except trying and searching ..and if I didn't get what I want after doing all this effort , I will try to be pleased by what I Have enshaaAllah.

Today i made two interviews in the same area ..it was a looser idea to make both in the same day , it was so tiring and exhautsting. I didn't think how much time it will take each. i had been through many, the maximum was like 20-30- minutes.

Today : in the first one .. I made an initial one for 20 minutes , then I had to wait for a half an hour and then make some tests for another 40 minutes and them go to another interview with HR manager for another hour. Actually it was interesting the one with HR manager, he discussed with me things about my study and I felt like I want to learn from him a lot in the field of HR and the presentation skills. I felt it was pretty professional and that is whatI liked the most about it, beside the environemnt of the company was some how familiar.
The halls had some mikes and during the evening prayer , the azan (prayer call ) was sound through the mikes in a low voice in the company's halls. Other than that , managers seemed to be friendly and professional.

The second interview , was at a company, I actualy found that it was more like an office , so I felt like NO.

But the one who made the interview for me was a girl that I found her a colleague, it was pretty nice to find it a colleague , it made me more relaxed , even when I felt it is like No for me , I was happy that she told me that I seem some how not tough enough to handle the position ?? Is that releveant , do I have ..maybe yes.

Any ways I didn't mind. But I liked talking to her a lot and she adviced me about some resources in where shall I find work and I actually asked for her number because I was impressed by talking to her.

So today ,I can say that one interview that is still in process ISA and the other is out, but I liked the fact that I got introduced to people , one seems pretty professional and the other was very helpful and may help me in friendly terms hopefully later ISA.

Women economic rights in Islam

2005-09-26T13:17:00.000-07:00

Well this is a brief view, i don;t think I am covering it all , but this is just a small insight I got from a research on the net for those who are interested about having an overview of women economic rights in Islam.

Economic rights

Islam gives for the women the right of independent ownership, woman's right to her money, real estate, or other properties is fully acknowledged. This right undergoes no change whether she is single or married. She retains her full rights to buy, sell, mortgage or lease any or all her properties
Her assets remained hers, and marriage or divorce will not alter the fact.

No married woman is required to spend any amount at all from her property and income on the household.

However in some circumstances she may find it necessary to spend from her earnings or savings to provide the necessities for her family. While this is not a legal obligation, it is consistent with the mutuality of care, love and cooperation among family members.

The woman is entitled also to full financial support during marriage and during the waiting period in case of divorce or widowhood. Some jurists require , in addition, one year's support for divorce and widowhood (or until they remarry, if remarriage takes place before the year is over).
A woman who bears a child in marriage is entitled to child support from the child's father. Muslim wife is entitled to be supported by her husband, no matter how rich she may be in her own right; whilst she is a child, she is entitled to be supported by her father and in old age she is entitled to be supported by her children. The Muslim woman is relieved of the burden of having to earn a living, and she is allowed to dispose of her earnings in whatever manner she chooses.

The financial advantages accorded to women and not to men in marriage and in family have a social counterpart in the provisions that the Quran lays down in the laws of inheritance, which afford the male, in most cases, twice the inheritance of a female.
Her share in most cases is one-half the man's share, with no implication that she is worth half a man!
This variation in inheritance rights is only consistent with the variations in financial responsibilities of man and woman according to the Islamic Law.

Man in Islam is fully responsible for the maintenance of his wife, his children, and in some cases of his needy relatives, especially the females. This responsibility is not reduced because of his wife's wealth or because of her access to any personal income gained.
She has no obligation to spend on her family out of such properties or out of her income after marriage.

The Quran states: "Men are the maintainers of women because Allah has made some of them to excel others and because they spend of their wealth (for the support of women)." (4:34)

Does Islam Oppress Women ? (Part 2)

2005-09-16T11:21:00.000-07:00

This is the second post , I will try to give brief views of the the social aspects of women in Islam , that I got from some researches , and will try to elaboratemore in the following posts ISA.

The Social Aspect of Women in Islam:]

A) As a Daughter:
(1) The Quran ended the cruel practice of female infanticide, which was before Islam. God said:
“And when the girl (who was) buried alive is asked, for what sin she was killed” (Quran, 81:8-9)

(2) The Quran went further to rebuke the unwelcoming attitude of some parents upon hearing the news of the birth of a baby girl, instead of a baby boy. God has said:

“ And when one of them is informed of (the birth of) a female, his face becomes dark, and he suppresses grief. He hides himself from the people because of the ill of which he has been informed. Should he keep it in humiliation or bury it in the ground? Certainly, evil is what they decide. “ (Quran 16:58-59)

(3) Parents are duty-bound to support and show kindness and justice to their daughters. The Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) said: “ Whosoever supports two daughters until they mature, he and I will come on the Day of Judgment as this (and he pointed with his fingers held together)”}

B) As a Wife:

(1) Marriage in Islam is based on mutual peace, love, and compassion, and not just the mere satisfying of human sexual desire. Among the most impressive verses in the Quran about marriage is the following:
“ And of His signs is: that He created for you from yourselves mates that you may find tranquility in them; and He placed between you affection and mercy. Indeed in that are signs for a people who give thought.” (Quran, 30:21)

(2) The female has the right to accept or reject marriage proposals. According to the Islamic Law, women cannot be forced to marry anyone without their consent.

Ibn Abbas reported that a girl came to the Prophet Muhammad (PBUH), and she reported that her father had forced her to marry without her consent. The Messenger of God gave her the choice . . . (between accepting the marriage or invalidating it). (Ibn Hanbal No. 2469). In another version, the girl said: "Actually I accept this marriage but I wanted to let women know that parents have no right (to force a husband on them)" (Ibn Maja, No. 1873)

3- The concept of Mahr, marriage gift , in Islam is neither an actual or symbolic price for the woman, as was the case in certain cultures, but rather it is a gift symbolizing love and affection

4- Islam encourages the husband to treat his wife well, as the Prophet Muhammad ( PBUH) said: “ The best among you are those who are best to their wives.”
Prophet Muhammad. (PBUH) said:
“The best of you is the best to his family and I am the best among you to my family. “
He also told the Muslims: "Fear Allah in respect of women." And: "The best of you are they who behave best to their wives."

5- The husband is responsible for the maintenance, protection, and overall leadership of the family, within the framework of consultation and kindness.

6- Islam emphasizes the importance of taking counsel and mutual agreement in family decisions. The Qur'an gives us an example:
"...If they (husband wife) desire to wean the child by mutual consent and (after) consultation, there is no blame on them..." (Qur'an 2: 233).

7- The Quran urges husbands to be kind and considerate to their wives, even if a wife falls out of favor with her husband or disinclination for her arises within him:
“...And live with them in kindness. For if you dislike them, perhaps you dislike a thing and God makes therein much good. “ (Quran, 4:19)

Prophet Muhammed (PBUH) said : "A Muslim must not hate his wife, and if he be displeased with one bad quality in her, let him be pleased with one that is good." And: "The more civil and kind a Muslim is to his wife, the more perfect in faith he is"

(8) Divorce is a last resort, permissible but not encouraged, for the Quran esteems the preservation of faith and the individual’s right -male and female alike- to felicity. Forms of marriage dissolution include an enactment based upon mutual agreement, the husband’s initiative, the wife’s initiative (if part of her marital contract), the court’s decision on a wife’s initiative (for a legitimate reason), and the wife’s initiative without a cause, provided that she returns her marital gift to her husband. When the continuation of the marriage relationship is impossible for any reason, men are still taught to seek a gracious end for it. The Quran states about such cases:
“ And when you divorce women and they have fulfilled their term (i.e. waiting period), either keep them in kindness or release them in kindness, and do not keep them, intending harm, to transgress (against them). “ (Quran, 2:231)

C) As a Mother:
(1) Islam considered kindness to parents next to the worship of God.
The Quran elevates kindness to parents (especially mothers) to a status second to the worship of God:

“ Your Lord has commanded that you worship none but Him, and that you be kind to your parents. If one of them or both of them reach old age with you, do not say to them a word of disrespect, or scold them, but say a generous word to them. And act humbly to them in mercy, and say, “My Lord, have mercy on them, since they cared for me when I was small.” (Quran, 17:23-24,)

"And we have enjoined upon man (to be good) to his parents: His mother bears him in weakness upon weakness..." (Qur'an 31:14)

In another tradition, the Prophet (PBUH) advised a believer not to join the war against the Quraish in defense of Islam, but to look after his mother, saying that his service to his mother would be a cause of his salvation. Mu'awiyah, the son of Jahimah, reported that Jahimah came to the Prophet (peace be upon him) and said, " Messenger of Allah! I want to join the fighting (in the path of Allah) and I have come to seek your advice." He said, "Then remain in your mother's service, because Paradise is under her feet."

Mothers in Islam are highly honored. Islam recommends treating them in the best way. A man came to the Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) and said, “O Messenger of God! Who among the people is the most worthy of my good companionship?” The Prophet (PBUH) said: {Your mother.} The man said, “Then who?” The Prophet (PBUH) said: {Then your mother.} The man further asked, “Then who?” The Prophet (PBUH) said: {Then your mother.} The man asked again, “Then who?” The Prophet (PBUH) said: {Then your father.}

D) As a Sister in Faith (In General):

The Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) taught kindness, care, and respect toward women in general: {I commend you to be good to women.} It is significant that such instruction of the Prophet was among his final instructions and reminders in the farewell pilgrimage address given shortly before his passing away.

Prophet Muhammed (PBUH) encouraged his followers to marry the widows, because of the responsibility of maintaining the children and earning that falls upon them.
Abu Hurairah reported that the Prophet said: "One who makes efforts (to help) the widow or a poor person is like a mujahid (warrior) in the path of Allah, or like one who stands up for prayers in the night and fasts in the day."

I will try to elaborate more in that in the next post ISA.

Does Islam Oppress Women ? (part 1)

2005-09-12T06:15:00.000-07:00

I was in a debate with some foreigners in one of the fellow bloggers , and I found that there is a misconception of Women in Islam. The concept of women in Islam is misunderstood.

They view Muslim women as being oppressed a lot. What I would like them to know is that if Muslim women were oppressed, it’s because they forsake the true essence of Islamic guidelines and follow their country’s cultural practices.

It is important to know that Islamic law is derived solely from Quran and Sunnah.

The message of Islam is believed to have been revealed to Prophet Muhammad (PBUH), about 610 AD through the angel Gabriel. All the revelations of Allah have been accordingly recorded in the Holy Quran. It is said that the Quran is a record of the exact words revealed by God through the Angel Gabriel to the Prophet Muhammad. It was memorized by Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) and then dictated to his Companions, and written down by scribes, who cross-checked it during his lifetime. It is believed that not one word of its 114 chapters has been changed over the centuries, so that the Quran is in every detail the unique and miraculous text which was revealed to Muhammad fourteen centuries ago.

I will try to give very brief views in some posts of on women in Islam that I obtained from several researches, books and verses from Quran.

The first one is about the social aspects for women in Islam:

Women before Islam

To understand how the status and position of women improved by Islamic law, it is important to understand the conditions women were in before the Quran and Sunnah were introduced to humankind

Women in Ancient Civilizations:

Briefly how women were treated in general in previous civilizations and religions, especially those which preceded Islam (before 610 AD).

In the past women were degraded and used as objects of lust The following examples from history illustrate the fact that the status of women in earlier civilizations was very low to the extent that they were denied basic human dignity:

1. Babylonian Civilization: The women were degraded and were denied all rights under the Babylonian law. If a man murdered a woman, instead of him being punished, his wife was put to death.
2. Greek Civilization: women were deprived of all rights and were looked down upon. In Greek mythology, an ‘imaginary woman’ called ‘Pandora’ is the root cause of misfortune of human beings. The Greeks considered women to be subhuman and inferior to men.
3. Roman Civilization: When Roman Civilization was at the zenith of its ‘glory’, a man even had the right to take the life of his wife. Prostitution and nudity were common amongst the Romans.
4. Egyptian Civilization: The Egyptian considered women evil and as a sign of a devil.
Pre-Islamic Arabia: Before Islam spread in Arabia, the Arabs looked down upon women and very often when a female child was born, she was buried alive.

The history of human civilization testifies that the woman, who gives birth as a mother, was humiliated, treated harshly, and reduced to the position of being a “maid” rather than a dignified woman. Women were held in bondage to their husbands, who could keep them or divorce them at their will and pleasure. Women were viewed as the embodiment of sin, misfortune, disgrace, and shame, and they had no rights or positions in society whatsoever.
Hence, it is quite apparent men had absolute dominance over women in this time period.

The Arabs did not welcome the birth of a baby girl, and this was so because of the nature of their society.

Islam rehabilitate the status of women in society,

Islam has denounced the old myth of eve as a temptress and source of evil, as the cause of original sin and the fall of humankind. On the contrary, the Quran depicts Adam and Eve as equally responsible for their sin. The Quran describes,

“Did I not forbid you both that tree and tell you that Satan was an avowed enemy unto you?” Quran 7: 19-27

Islam prohibited the practice of female infanticide and restored birth rights to women.

The Quran ended the cruel practice of female infanticide by stating,

“ When the female (infant) buried alive is questioned for what crime she was killed…”Quran 81:8-9

Equality of Women and Men in the way they are judged :

1- The Prophet (PBUH) reported to have said, “All people are equal, as equal as the teeth of a comb. There is no claim of merit of an Arab over a non-Arab, or of a white over a black person, or of a male over a female,”

The Quran is quite clear about the issue of the claimed superiority or inferiority of any human, male or female. The sole basis for superiority of any person over another is piety and righteousness not gender, color, or nationality
Woman, declared the Prophet Muhammad (PBUH), “are the twin halves of men.”
He inculcated respect for women in these words: “The most pious thing in the world is a virtual woman”

2- According to the Quran, men and women receive the same punishment for crimes such as theft (5:38), fornication (24:2), murder and injury (5:45).

3- According to Islam , men and women have the same religious and moral duties and responsibilities. Each human being shall face the consequences of his or her deeds:
“ And their Lord responded to them (saying): Never will I allow to be lost the work of (any) worker among you, whether male or female; you are of one another... “Quran, 3:195

4- The Qur'an provides clear-cut evidence that woman incompletely equated with man in the sight of God in terms of her rights and responsibilities. The Qur'an states:
"Every soul will be (held) in pledge for its deeds" (Qur'an 74:38). It also states:
“...So their Lord accepted their prayers, (saying): I will not suffer to be lost the work of any of you whether male or female. You proceed one from another
Whoever works righteousness, man or woman, and has faith, verily to him will We give a new life that is good and pure, and We will bestow on such their reward according to the their actions. (Qur'an 16:97, see also 4:124).

5- According to the Holy Quran, men and women have the same human spiritual nature:
“ O mankind, fear your Lord, who created you from one soul and created from it its mate and dispersed from both of them many men and women... “ (Quran, 4:1 )

Muslim Women and Education

The Prophet (PBUH) moreover encouraged education for both males and females and even ordered that the slave girls should be educated.

He made it clear that seeking knowledge was a matter of religious duty binding upon every Muslim man and woman. Today, however, family circumstances, together with the traditions and customs of specific Muslim courtiers, may work to the detriment of the girl, in terms of depriving her of education, for reasons which have nothing to do with Islam. The Prophet ( PBUH) said:

"Seeking knowledge is a mandate for every Muslim (male and female)."

Men and women both have the capacity for learning and understanding. Since it is also their obligation to promote good behavior and condemn bad behavior in all spheres of life, Muslim women must acquire the appropriate education to perform this duty in accordance with their own natural talents and interests.

I will try to make ISA in the second post some views of the social aspects of Women in islam

Is it all my fault ?

2005-09-10T15:55:00.000-07:00

I was engaged before for few months , i was planning and going into the marriage , it was a sort of arranged , but because the guy was nice and my parents liked him , so I went into the issue and because he was the first one in my life , my emotions drifted quickly and felt liking him a lot and i didn't mind to call him frequently which was an obvious indicator that I liked him.

At the begining he was very caring and like to call me by hours, afer I agreed on him , and the engagement took place , things turned the other round slowly , at the begining , two or three times calling , after a while once a day and I didn;t mind, after a while he calls at 7 pm the first call , and i felt so much hurted because his way changed , he was very upset from blaming him , he said that i am doing pressure on him , actually the message or the ring that he could of done in the morning won't do much , but it will show that he cares ! right ?

Even if this is his way , and at the begining he was overwhelming with me , but he actually felt how much emotions I need , People indeed differ, i may need emtions fullfillment more than some people else , and what is the problem that he gives me the emtions that I need ?
A phone call will not make much difference and will not cost him much , even if this is not his attitude , to be over emotinal , but this is part of giving , why not to give me the thing i need especially that it won;t cost him sometning ? ,

I was doing things he required from me , to change it in my self and I did for his sake as far as I could , but he was still upset , blamming me that I am not doing what he wants but i was trying , is n't partner ship requires giving from both sides ?

Things turned miserable for me , I found myslef getting nervous , can;t keep control my temper , getting nervous for the least reasons, I got nervous on him , i got nervous on my family , I was panicing in a terrible way , IS that normal ? I think I could of been over reacting , but what can I do about that ? I wish if my reactions are quite and not hyper as it happened . I know that this could upset but my reactions are HIGH, For 2 months before we broke up , i was going down and he was taking it on his pride the way how i was talking to him in this way , i.e getting nervous on him , and he wasn't even answering my phone calls , that was terrible week until we broke up.

My problem now, is that people say because you are n't experienced in the way how to deal with men , you should n;t of show him that you care and some else says you shouldn;t of get nervous .

The guy was fine , but i was turning out to be some other person than who I am ,
till now, can't be the same even if I try to be so but still in pain whenever I remember .

I found myslef getting panic for the least reasons these days , whenever there is a debate for example with mom and my sis , I found myslef getting nervous and saying like ENough , i can;t handle any mre stress , my nerves are getting down for the lest reasons, and the people in debate themselves aren;t. Mom tells me that this is indeed not normal and I should have some self training to take tings on lightly basis , I wish if I can !

So is it all my fault ?

Charity Again

2005-09-09T03:19:00.000-07:00

I got some mails that have links to donate to Katrina in US , I wonder if there is something equivalent that could be applied in Egypt and in the Middle East , especially for the poverty that is widely spread in South Africa. And people can go on and donate online for an organized program. Sometimes we are willing to help but don't find the means.

I don't know actually the mechanism of how can some one donate on the internet , but I think there should be some proper developements on the ME charity sites in a way that make them accept the donations through the net.

This is mainly because it will be much easier and to spread the word better

One of the bloggers (Jane) told me about the unicef site and it makes donations and collect them for overall the world.

I trust two organizations that I saw them actually working which are :
1- Resala NGO, www.resala.org One of the organizations that are very organized and make various activities.
2- Mosaada NGO , www.mosaada.com , this is also one of the good growing NGOs in Egypt, I liked about them how they try to enhance their resources by making some projects such as recycling plastics and disposal stuff that are extra in our homes , so if any one has in excess to any thing in home , they can contact them and they will come and take the stuff that you want to get them disposed. They will take them , recycle and then sell for money which will indeed be used for chairity. http://www.mosaada.com/proj_recycle.htm

3- Finally , and not the last , my dentist told me about "Arab Medical Unit " , in Egypt located in Kas El- Einy , located in the Medical syndicate - cairo - Egypt , they do very well organized activities as far as he told me , not only in Egypt but through the Middle East and it is one of the organizations he trusts. www.amu-egypt.com

I hope we can find collaborated efforts in an organized form from these NGOs in such a way that yields the best effect. I think we can at least ask and share , and ElhamdAllah the Charity NGOs are increasing.

Debating and Arguments

2005-09-06T05:54:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking from a while to write about the debate and the argument issue , on the blog sphere and in the real life connections.

In the real life , I had noticed in my work that fights could come up for the least trival reasons , could be the discussion about the best football player or about the fashion.

Things that may bear double standard of opinions , every one is convinced by something it is fine , I don't think that one party should underestimate from the other's opinion so as to prove that he is right.

Why ? Sometimes It is not even an important issue on the first basis. And what is wrong if I made a discussion with some one and she reconvinced me by something that I believe that she might be right about it, it is for my own benefit.

Even in the vital issues , sometimes stubborness and the person's need to preserve his/her ego from proving that they might be wrong may lead them to loose of listening to the others even if these opinions are true.

What if we can have a civilized argument and debate with open objective minds ,

People have different experiences in their lives and if they didn't pass through a certain expereince , they may had seen it with people they know, so what is wrong in that some one cold be better experienced than the other in something and you take from them their points of view and put them in consideration. I know that each has his own beliefs and may find it hard for their ego to accept other opinions easily , but what is the point of debate then?

And if i am totally not convinced by the other's point of view why do we have to hold a debate of low level (If i may call that).

Why should the other side use the aggressive , mocking , sracastic system attitude ? If there is a diagreement , why can't this be held in a civilized manner without trying to use the approach called " Hit and Run " or use the mocking and loud voice so as to feel that they are the dominant party .

Actually people who use this system and attitude are quite weak , don;t have enough couage to stand a conversation , that may be proved to be wrong , or just don;t accept any point of view against theirs.

A quiz at Shop Girl Bog

2005-08-27T02:07:00.000-07:00

This quiz became lately very spread in the blogs , it was originally in Shopgirl's blog , I answered it as well , here it is

Three names you go by:
*Roora
*my first name
*youyou

Three parts of your heritage:
*Muslim
*Egyptian
*Arab

Three things that you don't like:
*Dishonesty
*Abusing
*Lieing

Three of your everyday essentials:
*My coffee
*Praying
*Staying in touch with my family and friends

Three things you are wearing right now:
*A trouser
* A T-shirt
*My ribbon

Two truths and a lie:*
I belive In God and his Prophet Mohamad (PBUH)
* When a door seems to be closed , another opens in our life
* Everything is constant in our life

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to you:
*Dressing Nice
* Warm voice
* Dark Neat hair

Three things you just can’t do:
* Can't stop thinking
*stop worrying (hopefully I do )
* Ignoring

Three of your favorite hobbies:
*Playing tennis
*Internet surfing
* Making silver jewlery

Three things you want to do really badly right now:
* Calling some people I lost contact with
* go to sleep
* Have my dinner

Three places you want to go on vacation:
*Detroit / Disney Land
* France
* In Egypt (Hurghada and Sharm)

Three things you want to do before you die:
* Do my Hij
* To get married and be a mother for well brought up kids ISA
*To be Forgiven by God and from the people who have rights on me
* To memorize quran ISA

Three ways I am stereotypically a woman:
*Emotional
* Unrealistic
* Sensitive

SO what do I want to be in three years ?

2005-08-26T04:53:00.000-07:00

A question that I was asked in my application to fullfill while I am doing an interview , and it was from the questions that I didn't like , because if I said the true answer , they will simply not going to take me.
I was applying in one of the PR positions , and I am planning hopefully that I complete my post graduate studies and try to either catch in a descent job where I have completely different work than the PR thing, or to catch up woth one of the private universities and start teaching.

Actually , last year I was interested in so many stuff that I tried and I found myself much more interested than the routine job , I tried this scarf business that I liked a lot, but did not succeed:( but still like it and it was a nice experience for me aferall.

I also tried to design some silver jewlery and make some (as a hobby that I liked for myself )and I sold some to my friends , and my aquaintances, I planned to take it as professional one , but after the exams , i get bored from the whole stuff.

Teaching , I consider it to be a very good option for girls and women , especially when I get married and have kids in the future ISA, it will be a very suiting job for me. Working hours are fine , vaccations are ok , salary wise could be fine.
I thought like I mentioned if I can catch up in private university or to take a certain course that qualifies me for teaching the IGCSE students , but still not now , I want to concentrate on what I am doing right now.

The other thing , for what do I want to be in three years or see myself to be ? I see myself a mother for good children ISA, I found that all these stuff are non sense for the reader of my application , so I had to say and write things that they see it matching with what the are going to like and get impressed with.

Eraser

2005-08-26T04:38:00.000-07:00

Sometimes , I wish if I have an eraser and erase somethings that I said or I did. And sometimes else , I wish if I can erase situations , but that at the end is God's will that you have no hand in. It is God's plan that He wants you to be put in a certain situation or to pass by something even if you don't like to examine us.

But what I feel bad about and I wish if I can erase are things that I do and say and then afterwards when its result is just too bad and not as I expected. I feel so bad because this was in my choice and not a matter of fate. Here I feel that I need an eraser so that I wont feel nervous from myself or blamming myself or even feel guilty.

It is a very bad feeling that you feel blamming your self , and nervous on How I said so or acted like that ! The point is before you realize what you are doing , you feel you are doing great and then after a while when you wake up , you get the worst feeling ever, angry from youself. It is worser 100 times than getting angry from someone else , Because when someone upsets you , you either try to get your right back by all the means and you know that God hears our call and knows what happens so this brings peace to my heart.

Help out

2005-08-23T02:33:00.000-07:00

I have had this discussion with my dentist, who was telling me that there are certain types of food that I should not eat as long as I have a high probability that my teeth would have caries. The discussion was about soft drinks and how difficult it is for me to stop these types of food, and then it moved to the boycotting issue, and then what is the effect of buying all my needs from imported products rather than local products, and how this might effect the economy and thus the rest of community.

Regarding the economy and people (business makers) are trying to get the easy profit. Why don’t they instead of buying the franchisee right, opt for trying to do something original on their own,?

Why don’t they try to have their own stuff and improve it, that might improve the economy in the long run? We don’t have the intention to create something of our own!

Weird enough, even the Burger restaurants , coffee shops, scarves , so many are imported , amazing I never thought about most of my scarves , are made from different countries , mainly China.

We buy automatically the cheaper thing (Chinese for ex.) without thinking that this will consequently effect the value of the Pound and how it will go down and the prices will go higher. We think about it on a very personal level. “I” want to pay less.

We can instead buy some local products, especially that the quality of some local stuff are improved, such as TV sets and VCRs , even if not top quality, or a bit more expensive , but the sacrifice might worth the benefit in the long run. It would encourage manufacturers, after all they need to cover their costs.

so why don’t most of the people go on buying the local stuff even if they are not as luxurious as imported ones for the sake of improving the economy.

He told me you may not feel it harmful for you in the mean time, but some others in the rest of community may do. Even if the local products are little more expensive, but this extra expense you may not feel, but in the long run, if large number of people favor to buy local products even if not as luxurious as the imported ones, this will lead to a better economy in the long run and the value of currency will improve and the rest of community will feel better in the way we live.

I had an idea before but was not done perfectly because it was done on the spur of the moment and the market plan was not done perfectly.

My idea was to sell some of the scarves (produced here in Egypt ) to any foreign country who have Muslims but don’t have much excess to scarves and even if they do, they are very over priced if compared to the prices in Egypt because of the currency value.

I tried with my friend and with one of my acquaintances in one of the foreign countries , but unfortunately it did not go as we expected because we did not study the market properly , but still I see that the idea is good and could be of benefit to some scarf industries in Egypt, shops . If it is done by many and in a larger scale , it can have a good effect, also it definitely needs proper planning and proper studying of the market in the country to know their needs and thus provide it to them

Just brain storming here, wonder if anyone has other ideas.

Does higher salary make you happier ?

2005-08-17T10:28:00.000-07:00

Will a Bigger Salary Make You Happier? it is an article written By Kate Lorenz, CareerBuilder.com that i read on msn today , actually the title caught my eyes as i was discussing it while i was saying that i am looking for a job and it sounds pretty importnat for me that the job gives me good experince and good pay as well.

here it is below :

In today’s consumer-driven society, it’s often assumed that bigger is better (the popularity of the Hummer as a city car is a prime example). So of course, many Americans may believe that the bigger the paycheck, the happier they will be. However recent research suggests that this just isn’t so.Are Rich People Happier?The latest buzz in the field of economics points to a myriad of studies examining the link between happiness and wealth. These studies all seek to answer the question: Are richer people happier? Prevailing research suggests no.Obviously if you’re living in poverty, more money probably will increase your level of happiness. But if you are at a good job that supports your lifestyle, would leaving it for a 20 percent salary increase at another company mean a 20 percent increase in your happiness?Not according to Richard Layard, director of the Centre on Economic Performance at the London School of Economics and author of Happiness: Lessons from a New Science. Layard cites research that implies that although the United States has experienced extensive economic growth since 1950, people today are no happier overall than they were in the 1950s. And this same theory holds true in other wealthy, developed nations, such as Japan and Britain.It Isn’t Easy Being Wealthy It makes sense. With added wealth often comes added stress and increased responsibility. There’s a reason surgeons and stockbrokers make a lot of money, because there is a lot riding on their performance and decisions. And usually the higher your rung on the corporate ladder, the longer your workday and the more stressful your position. So although we have become wealthier as a country, we have not necessarily become happier.Then there’s the slippery task of defining what “wealth” is. Like most things in life, wealth is a relative term. No matter how much money you make, if everyone around you makes a lot more, you won’t feel “wealthy.” So hanging hopes for true happiness on an extra zero on a paycheck could make obtaining happiness very elusive.
.in your life in other ways: take up a hobby, start your own business, or train for a marathon. You may find being richer doesn’t make you happy; rather, being truly happy makes your life richer

My Comment : is that it is true , some of my colleagues who were having high salaries , but quite stressed , especially women , were tired and stressed , and the way that made them to get out of this boring and stressful life was a hobby that they like for example writing poetry that they love ormaking jelwlery or what ever they feel they are into.

they told me something nice , that they feel that they need to do the things they want to do for their own enjyoment only and without any obligations.

My best friend also used to work in a place where she used to go at home by 9 and sometimes 10 , she used to love her work but actually she had suffered from so much instability in her home life , she was in dilema that she misses her family and she doesnt see them much.

Of course i am not encouraging that people wont be ambitious , no at all , i belive that we should go on and be ambitious , but to be content by what we have now , because maybe harder jobs can take from you your peace of mind, so till it happens enjoy what you have now.

Having slef content and Reda is one of the sources of happiness, as prophet Mohamed (PBUH) said in a hadith that means if some one woke up and he finds what he eats for his day and he is sleeping safely in his home and in a good health , then he does not need any thing else ( sorry i may not be properly translating it )

Work

2005-08-15T07:00:00.000-07:00

i have been working for few years from now, and i was not fully content by the things i used to do at work.
i was quite frustrated and i wanted something new to feel self fullfilled and being creative a bit.
well things moved on seeking that things would be better, sometimes it used to be better but mostly , i felt that i can learn much more in some where else.

so i decided to start in my masters so as to find something nicer to learn and thus improve my chance in working in better areas. At the begining , i felt that my brain was rusted , been years since i opened a scientefic book and i had to read articles and i should process very quickly , after a while i get used to that , it was a sort of lubicating the mind

Still working in my masters , i decided to change work ISA, and trying to do my best , i did not stop searching in all the searching engines , ask all those i know. recruitment offices , every thing, been two months searching ,

been with several interviews lately, seems that my demand for the job is too high , i want a good job and with a good pay as well , actually i am not loking for an extreemly high pay but an acceptable one , that i feel by difference in the work shift and at the same time better job as experience.

it is a dilema , actually , that i found two very interesting posts and seem to be like who i am in one of them , but their pays are not really that good, one of them is more than my current job by something negligible and on the other hand , more working hours and one day off
and the other i will have a less pay than the current one by also something negligible but still more working hours , but such a great experience and the field i like the most , seems to be nice .

i know that i can just go on but i should feel some how rewarded so as to be encouraged especially that i am not a fresh graduate any more.

My parents are telling me not to waste my time in looking for a new job and try to concentrate on my post graduate studies so as to catch up if possible in one of the private universities. Actually i like teaching , but i feel it is a long way to go.

Still looking and looking , and i am doing what i can , and hopefully things turn to the best ISA.

Some ideas

2005-08-15T04:23:00.000-07:00

After the charity post , some commented and gave me some ideas , especially blog ME (that is her name )that i liked her idea a lot.

1- haal said that we should start simple and spread the word , and put the rest of food after every meal in a platic dish and give to someone in the street who give it some one needy
2- some others stated that they want to give out some in kind contributions rather than money , in egypt, there is an organization that accepts all inkind contributions (clothes, furniture, medicine, sheets) and distributes to poor families or they make out exhibitions in poor areas. the most famous for me is resala organization. www.resala.org
3- the third i dea that i liked the most is from a blogger called Me , who said that she collects the extra medicine that people buys for a certain purpose and then afterwards they dont use , and could be left till expired. actually i experience that sometimes especially with vitamines. And vitamines are indeed very essential and important in some treatments , the doctors prescribe it with the regular medicine .

well i am calling any oneto share by his own or with blogger Me in that medicine thing, because actually medicines are a great problem , they are extreemly expensive and some times unavailable.

Charity

2005-08-12T13:06:00.000-07:00

The Tv and the media every now shows and announces for pictures everywhere in the world who are very poor and at most very sick and dont have enough food, their bodies are so fragile from being hungry.
i wish if i can have enough money and know the means by which donations can reach them. i know there are several NGOs, and professional and internationsl aentities that help out here in egypt and in allover the world, especially in africa.

sometimes i feel guilty when we just throw fod becasue we are not anymore into it and i see these pictures of these hungered people.
sometimes we just ofrget about the food and till it is spoiled and gets rotten , because it is in excess
and sometimes else we say no , we wont eat something in the refrigerator for more than two days which will actually nor really taste nice after wards , but there are some others who wont really mind , they would be happy because something will keep them from hunger , they have no other choice.

i am writing this post as a call for any who reads it , to try to give a hand , i dont know or have any clue of how internationally , i mean to those in south africa, but inside the country , there are alot of means to help.
we may instead of throwing the remaining food into the basket or wait till it has no taste to get some plastic closed dishes and put them in anice order and cover and give it to any one in the street , like little kids . or those who clean down the street.
i am pretty sure that there are some NGOs that know some poor areas , we can helo through them.
But what i am talking about is that we should be self efficient ourselves in our resources and not to have waste and there are others and who dont find this waste.
If any one has any suggestions of how we all make a help , and change please go on.

Monaliza Smile

2005-07-27T16:04:00.000-07:00

I wateched a movie from a while called Monalize Smile , it was starting by Julia Robers, regardless of the movie itself idea, but i liked a statement that was mentioned by one of the girls when she was making a debate with her mother in the movie,
the mother was trying to convince the girl to keep up her marriage although it was turning miserable and she wasnt happy , for the sake that her image would be fine

the girl replied (by what it means), commenting on her image in the society by comparing her self with monaliza picture, saying that monalize looks smiling , she looks happy , but is she really happy ?

this statement i liked for so many reasons, for me i alaways face situations that we should do things (i am not talking about right and wrong ) , just to satisfy the social image , what about us , are we happy by that ? do we really want it ? and what about if what we really need and want is weired for the society surrounding us, because we arent fullfilling the social image.

so many aspects are like that , for example, if you went and you prepared your home, it should of a certian style that people see it is fame from their point of view, if you choose something to do or someone you want to be with, you have to think whether this will be acceptable in the society ,m does the image looks fine or not ?

maybe not all the people are like but there are so many aspects when i think about them ,i find that big part of my decision is built on the social image and how it will be seen . is it acceptable? does it look fine ? does it look nice ? what about me ? shouldnt it have the first priority .

i am not saying that we should go and do wrong behaviors or to put ourself under suspection from people and society , no , i am talking about the social image , without being suspected in your behaviour,.

For those who need to remember

2005-07-25T12:35:00.000-07:00

I usually keep some of the mails that i recieve that i like or touched my hear in away or another , even if it has to do with a nice memory and this will be the only reminder of it .

Among them one i loved very ,uch , i recieved it 4 years ago, i was a bit upset as my mood was turining down , i felt like some of the thing were going in the other direction that i wanted , actually it wasnt like that ,

At that time i recieved this mail , i felt like as if it is a message from God, it was like a spark or a reminder to make it up for me , it was quite a strong poem , for some one who is in pain ,it is quite strong , thanks God my situation wasnt that strong at all , but it seems that we give personal aspects bigger volume than it really is when they are just new.

i thought it would be nice to share , here it is :

What happened to those days when my faith was strong?

When I wouldn't dare think of doing anything wrong

when my yaqeen in Allah would lead me through

the good and bad .. the old and new

What happened to those days when my du'aa was sincere?

when there was absolutely nothing on earth that I would fear

when I was certain that Allah was really near

and would run to Him and leave all that is dear

What happened to those days when I could read and recite well?

when I bought al-janna and this dunya I would sell

when my heart was pure and all full of light

when my qiyam was my only source of strength and might

What's wrong my soul.. why did you fall?

Don't you know that Allah knows and hears your call?

A little test like this one shouldn't beat you so

It shouldn't pull you down to a level so low

Don't you know that Allah chooses what is best

and that this is all a previously planned test

Don't you know that He hears your soul .. He hears your cry

He sees you fall .. He sees you sigh

Allah is Great .. Allah is Al-Hakeem

His ways are just no matter how dark it may seem

Hold on, my soul, to the fireball in your palm

Hold on to it and when it burns act calm

whenever it falls, bend down and restart

let those tears fall and wipe that heart

Remember, my soul, the beauty of the promised firdaws

You know it's your dream to build there a hous

Get back on your feet and go back to those day

I know this only a passing phase ...

Awareness

2005-07-25T12:22:00.000-07:00

I guess many of our problems today could be solved by having awareness level, I am not talking about the education level, even if we are ignorant, there should be some of awareness level to people. What are their rights mad how they can look for it, how they can preserve their resources, what is right and what is wrong, what are their duties?

Well I was remembering my last omrah and I remember that I saw so many Muslims over there that I believe they are very much uneducated and they don’t have awareness by the holy place they are going to. They are spontaneously acting in a way that is not acceptable in such a holly place. I am not blaming them or judging them, I am more blaming us, the educated people who should give a hand for the uneducated and unaware people by advising them nicley what is right and what is wrong and what is acceptable and what is not. And they don’t really have to be educated but the community surrounding them, can give them some clues, in a nice way, for example I experienced that with the doorman kids, they are in their 6th grade, they are a bit unaware by what is surrounding them and, they are nice and polite but no much guidance towards their duties towards God, and what we should do and why, and why is the good behavior is self rewarding for God’s sake. Because sometimes it is the only way that makes us sticks to the right behavior even if we don’t like it.

My older sis when she was talking to them about some promising stuff for those who do good deeds and who stick to them, we can see how their eyes were amazed.

I believe that ignorance unfortunately brings so many wrongful behaviors in our society because there is no education, and sometimes they tell themselves “so what for that “, or "what will happen if I did so", I know that some really educated people do so many wrong things but it was recognized in some TV programs that in low uneducated standards the wrongful behaviors is spread in a noticeable way.

I think it is our responsibility if we can give a hand for people by participating in awaring them even if they were the next door neighbors, but we shouldn’t skip a chance by saying and giving a guide for people in a nice way and that how we can get up as a society and accordingly to prophet Mohamed (PPBUH), who cared so much by educating people, to an extent that in one of his wars, they can set free the prisons of war if he taught ten of the Muslims how to read and write.

Rememberance

2005-07-12T15:00:00.000-07:00

When becoming humiliated, remember the Prophet (Peace be upon him) in Ta'if.

When being starved, remember the Prophet (Peace be upon him) tying two stones to his stomach in the battle of Khandaq.

When becoming angry, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) control of anger on the martyrdom of his beloved Uncle Hamza.

When losing a tooth, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) tooth in the battle of Uhud.

When bleeding from any part of the body, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) body covered in blood on his return from Ta'if.

When feeling lonely, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) seclusion in Mount Hira .

When feeling tired in Salaat, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) blessed feet in Tahajjud.

When being prickled with thorns, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) pain from Abu Lahab's wife.

When being troubled by neighbours, remember the old woman who would empty rubbish on the Prophet (Peace be upon him) .

When losing a child, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) son, Ibrahim.

When beginning a long journey, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) long journey to Madinah.

When going against a Sunnah, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) intercession, (Ummati, Ummati, Ummati) (My Ummah).

When sacrificing an animal, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) sacrifice of 63 animals for his Ummah.

Before shaving your beard, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) face rejecting the two beardless Iranians.

When falling into an argument with your wife, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) encounter with Aisha and Hafsa.

When experiencing less food in the house, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) days of poverty.

When experiencing poverty, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) advice to Ashaab-e-Suffa (People of Suffa).

When losing a family member, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) departure from this world.

When becoming an orphan, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) age at six.

When sponsoring an orphan, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) sponsor for Zaid ibn Haritha.

When fearing an enemy, remember the Prophet's (Peace be upon him) saying to Abu Bakr in Mount Thour.

Whatever situation you may find yourself in, remember your role model, the best of creation: Prophet Muhammad (Peace be upon him).

things i like

2005-07-12T14:47:00.000-07:00

today my matsers result is shown and elhamdAllah i passed , it was a tough year though
but it seems that i like studying and i like reading and researching to know more about what is going , i dont know whether this step will help me or not but hopefully yes in my career,

i started too to play my favourite sport that i like which is tennis , i used to dream when i was a child to be a hero and gain one of the grandsalam prizes, but after a while when i knew that it is quite hard :) i gave it up and i stopped playing and then i returned playing but not aiming for any champions of course , but for the hoby. thanks God that there is something that i really like as a hobby , i mean having many hobies but one or two hobbies that make you feel very happy is something amazing.

i mean sometimes we feel that there is nothing really extra you do for your self other than the normal routine in your life so this is really a nice thing elhamdAllah , well i hope that this would continue and to find other things too to do useful and interesting

marriage :)

2005-07-02T08:56:00.000-07:00

The L Word:
6 weeks: I love U, I love U, I love U

6 months: Of course I love U

6 years: GOD, if I didn't love U, then why the hell did I propose?

Back from Work

6 weeks: Honey, I'm home
6 months: BACK!!
6 years: What did your mom cook for us today??

Gifts:

6 weeks: Honey, I really hope you liked the ring
6 months: I bought you a painting; it would fit the colours in the livingroom
6 years: Here's the money. Buy yourself something

Phone Ringing:
6 weeks: Baby, somebody wants you on the phone
6 months: Here, for you
6 years: PHONE RINGING

Cooking:

6 weeks: I never knew food could taste so good!
6 months: What are we having for dinner tonight?
6 years: AGAIN!!!!

Apology:

6 weeks: Honey muffin, don't you worry, I'll never hold this against you
6 months: Watch out! Don't do it again
6 years: What's not to understand about what I just said??

New Dress:

6 weeks: Oh my God, you look like an angel in that dress
6 months: You bought a new dress again???
6 years: How much did THAT cost me?

Planning for Vacations:
6 weeks: How do 2 weeks in Vienna or anywhere you please sound??
6 months: What's so bad about going to Istanbul on a charter plane?
6 years: Travel? What's so bad about staying home???

TV:

6 weeks: Baby, what would you like us to watch tonight?
6 months: I like this movie
6 years: I'm going to watch a football match, if you're not in the mood, go>to bed, I can stay up by myself

2005-07-02T08:34:00.000-07:00

this post i will talk about forgiveness, we need to forgive each other, and stop having hard feeling toward any one, life is much shorter than that and useless to waste in trival stuff

i am writing that bec it happened that one of our aquantainces died suddenly almot suddenly or not suddenly she was ill and she get better for a while and suddenly she died, sorry for the morbid narration , well i was in good terms with her but i was internally very upset from her bec of some stuff that i think she didnt mean it and she has no hand in it

well what really hurted my feeling when suddenly a person goes by and you feel upset from yourself that internally you could be wrong with her and now she is the hands of God, so that is really bad, i dont want to experience the feeling that i have something bad inside me towards any one again , i mean life is shorter than that , i know it is hard sometimes people really do BAD things but i am talking about stuff that we can get over it if we want to

to forgive each other is something very impprtant and brings peaceful to the heart , and most of all try to do all the good deeds we want to do , and with the people , as well , nothing really worth except the good act and behavior and good psychology that is what remains.

i remember in this occasion , the person that prophet Mohamed PPBUH mentioned about him that he will enter el jana (paradise ) and when one of the followers followed him to see what he does extra to enter the paradise , he found that he does nothing extra than the followers , but he told them that when ever he sleeps, he doesnt have any thing bad or hatred in his heart towards any one , (by what it means the word he said )

it is quite hard but it worths the trail

hi all

2005-06-27T04:08:00.000-07:00

i am happy to make this blog and will continue later ISA